My most difficult time of my life

There is some time in everyone's life when he would call it the most difficult time of his life.
I too have the most difficult time of my life when I lost my father unexpetedly and untimely. It was in August 2004 when this tragic incident happened with us which had created a large vaccum in our family, especially in my & my sister's life (even felt today by us). That night was the worst night of my life where my father was lying dead and I could not got a moment to sit and cry beside him, because if I cry how could I console my family. So I made myself strong (which I was not from the inside) and consoled my family. We were not at all ready for this, and it was in just in a matter few minutes that our whole world was shattered in a darkness, where many discission were to take and, and for every discission there were many advices (correct and wrong), from which we have to take the right discission, otherwise the future would not be as we expect.
I thank to my (the then) legal advisor who helped us in that time to overcome the then major problem of our family.
But at that time, I was the only male member of my family and so all the responsibilities automatically came upon my shoulders (as before that I was not at all serious about my life and my future and always escape from the responsibilities that were given to me), and so thereon I have to shoulder the responsibilities of my family, and take the right and correct discissions for them. Truely, in the beginning I faced many difficulties in handling the then problems and taking the correct discissions, but as it is a saying that "where there is a way there is a will". I steadied myself and along with my sister studied the problems which came in our family in detail and took the correct discission for it as there was nobody else to help us. But slowly and gradually we paved our way from that difficult time of life but the loss (of my father) is still felt by us very much.
Sorry........ for making you bored, by telling my most worst days of my life........but as I did not tell it to anyone , so I am writing it down.....about as I have gone through that time and faced it..............